The Majesty of Light
Writing these blogs brings joy, peace, and presence into my life. I put so much pressure on myself to do “many things” at a “certain time.” But I am actively choosing to keep the rigidity out of these blog creations.
There is importance in structure, but some things are not meant to be structured and other times, they cannot be structured! These blogs, to me, are not meant to be structured, but rather a gathering place, for myself, to collect and be. And to think about, you, my community-whomever may read these words.
Writing is such a gift. To put into tangible lines, the thoughts within my mind. And for you, wherever you may be, to be able to read them and receive- without any sound vibrations from our voices meeting. So amazing.
My mind arranges thoughts fast. Writing is the template that allows me to slow down. I am able to organize and dive deeper, through focus and inspiration, into thought layers, concepts, and other explorative musings. I truly love this time, when I can sit and write a blog. Because it is a space where I can pause, breathe, be, explore and connect, both to myself and to you, my community.
Writing authentic blogs is only capable with space. Since the beginning of the year, I had been holding the container for the Authentic Alignment Program, the Sacred Intuitive Program and then the launch of my herbal remedies’ web shop! It has been so-freaking-amazing. But, I knew that I needed a little break, after holding space and creating. It has been a lot of masculine energy. And now it is time to receive, reflect, be and nourish.
It feels so lovely to pivot my energy into the feminine as we pass through the portal of the summer solstice. The summer solstice is the time of light, but it also symbolizes, for me, the welcoming of the dark. From the winter solstice till now we have been slowly gaining light and I too had been increasing with momentum, work and speed. Now with this pivot of energy and as we move further away from the sun, I welcome in the darkness, the feminine.
Before bed, recently, I was reflecting, once again, on dark versus light or the feminine versus the masculine. A new insight came to me that I would love to share here.
Black & White
Imagine you were in a black room and wearing all black clothes. Pause and close your eyes, for a moment, and just sit with this visualization. [Pause] What are you feeling in your body and how does that experience effect your mental space? For me, it feels quite intense, like there is a heaviness, but also a vastness.
What is happening when we see the color black? It is ABSORBING everything on the light spectrum. What is reflected back to us? Nothing. It is a symbol of emptiness. There is nothing to see, it is the void. We only see black because it is in contrast to other colors. But black is truly the void. Yet, it holds all those light frequencies, truly symbolising infinite potential. This is the feminine.
Imagine you were in a white room and wearing all white clothes. Pause and clothes your eyes, for a moment, and just sit with this visualization. [Pause] What are you feeling in your body and how does that experience effect your mental space? For me, it feels very exposing and activating.
What is happening when we see the color white? It is REFLECTING everything on the light spectrum. Therefore, everything is reflecting back out for all the world to see. It is the emanated energy of all the colors, expressing itself back out and we experience it as the color white. This outward expression is the masculine.
As I was reflecting about these two colors, I started to understand more about the difference between the feminine and masculine energies. Feminine energy is typically depicted as the moon, the night, the darkness, and the cold. The masculine energy is typically depicted as vibrancy, light, power, action, and heat. These colors truly helped me feel, in my body, the relationship of these two opposing energies.
There is so much beauty in both the void and the light. I remember always wanting to chase the light, to run away from that which was dark, unknown or intangible, especially within myself. But the darkness is not “negative” or “evil” or “bad.” These are just judgements I had placed on an expression of energy.
As I embrace the feminine, I am recognizing how the color black is a powerful symbol of this energy. It’s ability to absorb, to reflect nothing, to be that void, open, vast space and to hold infinite, unseen protentional- this is all a representation of the cosmic mother, Sophia.
The masculine, I recognize more deeply, has been my base operating system, for far too long. The messages from Spirit, lately, have been to heal the masculine and this, to me, means to bring it into harmony with the feminine. To not need to express, do, act, organize, and control- all the time. This harmonization comes through integrating the healthy aspects of the masculine energy and to shift my perspective away from imbalanced masculine energies such as dominance, manipulation, and force.
The Summer Solstice Portal
For the northern hemisphere, I see the summer solstice as the day that we transition from the masculine energy and into the feminine energy. The days will be getting darker and darker until we reach the Winter Solstice in December, in which we will return to the light and welcome in the masculine energy. This is the peak day of sunlight- a symbol for masculine energy. For action, vitality, emanation, purpose and creation. And now we begin to shift into the feminine.
Of course, we experience these energies throughout each day and at different seasons of our own life, independent of the time of year. But I can see how I am welcoming in the darkness, while also embracing the peak of light. I have spent the past six months holding space, creating containers, offering, doing and building. Right now, I feel the call of the feminine.
To not feel like I need to fill the empty space within me with another project. But to trust that the open space is an opportunity that allows for more presence, connection to Spirit and relationship with my soul and heart. To just be with myself and re-relationship with myself is so important right now, before taking more action forward.
In honor of the summer solstice, RJ and I will be sitting in ceremony tonight to collectively dream of our visions for our land, home and life that we are calling in. We have been holding this vision for a while, but are going to dive into the deep cosmic potential of the Divine Mother and listen to our hearts for grounded, guidance and visions.
So grateful for the light and the dark, for the masculine and the feminine energies within me, and for creating harmony and balance between these two forces of Spirit and Nature. Merging and harmonizing both are essential in order to awaken into Divine Consciousness. The awakening is now, in this breath in and in this breath out and in the sacred, eternal present.